Happy New Year! It’s been approximately forever since I published a blog post (although I have a few half-finished draft posts written up…) and I figure the New Year is as good a time as any to buckle down and focus on writing more regularly. As you may have guessed from my last post, things haven’t been 100% great over the last few months, and while I was trying to figure out what to do with myself I kind of got overwhelmed.
A recent example of how much I let my life and goals slip away in the second half of last year is the fact that I spent the last 5 days of 2017 reading 7 books. Why? Because at the beginning of 2017 I set a goal (publicly, on Goodreads) to read 30 books in 2017. I was reading around 1 book a week at the time, and 30 seemed like a safe goal to set. Then “life happened” and I spent too much time doing nothing, and not enough time reading (or doing anything else.) I had a bit of a reading upswing in October/November, and was almost back on track with my goal when life happened (again.) Then the last week of 2017 rolled around, and I realized I was still 7 books away from reading 30 books in the year. Read More
It’s the end of September, and if you hadn’t noticed, this is my first blog post in months. The last few months have been busy at work, and kind of hectic in general, but being busy isn’t actually what kept me from blogging – lack of motivation and the total shitshow that is my mental health are what really did me in. I’m a little bit used to struggling with motivation when it comes to things I don’t always love, like going to the gym or getting laundry done, but it seems strange to find myself struggling to post new content on this blog when writing is something I enjoy.
One of the reasons I started a blog was because I have a lot of thoughts that I find easiest to express through writing (and then editing the shit out of. I second guess and edit almost every sentence of everything I write, including Facebook posts.) I am an expert at writing long-winded text messages and paragraph-long Facebook posts about all of the things I’m thinking all of the time. I can go on and on once I start thinking about something, but over the last few months, sitting down to write blog posts has left my mind totally blank. I have a list of blog post ideas and things I’d love to write about, but when it was time to actually sit and write, it’s like I had no opinion about anything.