It’s the end of September, and if you hadn’t noticed, this is my first blog post in months. The last few months have been busy at work, and kind of hectic in general, but being busy isn’t actually what kept me from blogging – lack of motivation and the total shitshow that is my mental health are what really did me in. I’m a little bit used to struggling with motivation when it comes to things I don’t always love, like going to the gym or getting laundry done, but it seems strange to find myself struggling to post new content on this blog when writing is something I enjoy.
One of the reasons I started a blog was because I have a lot of thoughts that I find easiest to express through writing (and then editing the shit out of. I second guess and edit almost every sentence of everything I write, including Facebook posts.) I am an expert at writing long-winded text messages and paragraph-long Facebook posts about all of the things I’m thinking all of the time. I can go on and on once I start thinking about something, but over the last few months, sitting down to write blog posts has left my mind totally blank. I have a list of blog post ideas and things I’d love to write about, but when it was time to actually sit and write, it’s like I had no opinion about anything.
I have to start by saying that I am so glad Embiria has arrived to provide awesome experiences in Toronto! Saturday’s SWEAT experience at barre3 was really great, and I’m already looking forward to seeing what experiences Embiria has planned for this summer.
SWEAT: The barre3 Class
Our instructor Jen introduced herself to each person who arrived, and explained a little bit about what to expect from the class. As soon as the class started, I knew it was going to be even harder than I imagined.
barre3 classes are a mixture of barre, pilates and yoga. I have zero experience with all 3 of these things, but I was never left standing around wondering how to do anything properly. Jen was great about calling out reminders to ensure our form was good, which was really helpful. At the gym on my own, I’m always wondering whether my form is correct. It was great to have someone to help with that in class. Read More
I’ve had kind of a rough week. Every week has its ups and downs (every day does, really), but this one felt especially hard. I survived it, though, and along the way I’ve learned a few things. These are things that I knew before, but didn’t really know before, ya know? They seem to make sense now. They seem to be more than just words.
You don’t have to feel bad about crying because someone is “not worth your tears.”
To start with, you’re worth your tears. These are your feelings, you’re the one who’s hurt, and you’re allowed to cry because you’re sad. I know it’s supposed to make people feel better, but labeling people or things as “not worth your tears” isn’t always that helpful. If you’re sad, you don’t need to be told that what’s making you sad isn’t worth being sad about. You are allowed to be sad and then cry because you’re sad.